ICSI - very nervous

[laurs]

Swaps - glad you're feeling a little better, you sound a little more positive and I'm so pleased. This road is a hard road and doesn't get much easier but you will get your baby/s, just remain positive and keep that strong faith of yours xxx

Kapers - Did they say your levels were high enough to be twins then? Just stay positive and remain open minded, just don't want you to get your hopes up that its twins and its just the one baby. I'm sure you would be over the moon if there was one baby or two, as long as they were healthy. I just remember a lady on my other forum told me the clinic had definitely said it was a twin pregnancy as she had such high levels, it was just the one at the scan and no other signs of the other so would love it to be twins and maybe it is (Good luck!). If you're feeling like crap I would take that as a good sign. Last time I felt completely normal and consequently things hadn't progressed, I had no pains, no belly, nought! So Clasha and Kapers you sound as if you are both fine and what dates are your scans again? x

Ginnie - How you doing? x

[clasha1]

Hi swaps if you do try again we will be right behind you supporting you xx

Kapers and Laurs - still got this on and off bleeding its well stressing me out! am trying not to but easier said than done eh?? The crampin was so severe last night that I ended up in tears - god knows what al be like with labour pains!

[swaps]

hi Kapers, Clasha, Ginnie, Fee, Ist timer, Laurs

thanks for all ur support. I didn't yet make up my mind to either go for the next round or ........ period is started, i think there is also some side effects of the medicines which i had taken so far like my body aches from evening, and at night i feel not comfortable, itching in eyes, breathlessness etc i feel these days those are besides the AF pain symptoms. i'll go to visit doc for the same tomorrow. i also feel pain in my left under arm pit, i dont know why it is there. i also get tired daily till evening. after that i do not want to do anything. so i think i had to visit doc first. lets see what she said.

hey do u people think that i can change the doc, or stick on this one. there are so many in Delhi who says that their success ratio is good, they vary by their prices also. i dont know, but that is for sure that if i'll go for the one more cycle then i'll surely visit at least 2-3 docs with my reports and see what they say at least, then i'll decide. i need ur opinion. do u all always stick on the same doc and never changed it?

rest fine. right now in college, so not feeling bad, but once i went to home at 5.00 pm i started feeling again those bad things happened with me. may be it passes by time.

bye for now.

[clasha1]

Hey swaps I think you should stay with your own doctor because they will know your body best? Have you and your hubby spoken about when you wil try it again? xx

[Ginniemeow]

Hi swaps,

I'd stick with the same doctor. They learn more and more about your system with each attempt and that experience may make the difference in having a positive. I am sticking with my same team of specialists. As I am in Western Canada I really have no choice unless I traveled four hours down to Calgary or 16 hours to Burnaby BC. So I'll stay at the one and only clinic in Edmonton

Thinking of you all. I finally started bleeding today ... so now the miscarriage is really real. The pain is crazy horrid. Hubby helps, last night he came downstairs with a glass of wine, some chocolate, pain killers and a sweet little sympathetic smile.

Ginnie

[clasha1]

Hey ginnie i know am pregnant but so so worried of miscarriage - been bleedin on and off for about a week now and still got the bad cramps - is that what you had? am worrying myself sick

[1st timer]

Hey,

Swaps im soo sorry for you both. I dont know what to say as a comfort since im only starting out. I hope that you are both doing fine. It does seem sensible to stay with the same doc though.

[Kapers]

Hi all,

Clasha I think i would be panic stricken too. Is there a doctor you know you could go to for a second opinion? It's already terrifying enough everyday all day without bleeding on and off, cause although we know about implantation bleeding and if we lose one twin, but shesh surely they can give you more reassurance?!

i'm sick everyday. not throwing up everyday but sometimes twice a day. Hanging out for scan sometime in the week beginning 29th March. Can do nothing until then. Feel I'm on tenderhooks.

Swaps can you stay with your own doctor and visit anoter just to see whether you feel more comfortable with them? I don't really know your system.

hugs to laurs, you must be really noticing your bump now.

ginnie huge hugs to you and hubby ^5 for the total thoughtfulness!!!

hey first timer, we encourage everyone to participate here, so don't hold back. xx

Fee, hoping to see your post soon.

[fee]

Hey All

Sorry not been on here all week, been so busy at work. well dh started his job on Monday and seems to be going well fingers crossed he will settle and i won't have the added worry of him not having a job. I am going for another session of accupuncture today.

Swaps so sorry to hear your news, i would stick to the same doctor also as they should know your history well hope you are feeling a bit better and if you feel strong enough try again.

Clasha hope you are okay i can understand why you are worried i would be too, but many woman experience full term pregnancy and bleed all the way through you are in early stages and it could be 2 which may also have a major effect on the body just try to stay relaxed get your feet up etc. When is your scan??

Ginnie how are you, have you had any more thoughts on another go with adoptive embyos, i have to say i would be like you i want to experience pregnancy and would probably go with adoptive embryos, everyone is different.

1st timer how are you just looking forward to the next go i expect. Is this your 1st time on the NHS??

Kapers so sorry to know you are poorly with your pregnancy hope all is well and the little one/ones are growing nicely you must be soo excited xx

Laurs how are you?? you and kapers should be on the same side of the world to comfort each other through your pregnancies. Hope you are feeling better xx

Fee

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[swaps]

well thanks for the nice advice. i also wanted to stick on the same doc, but i'll try and talked to others also for sure so that i can verify that there is no difference of opinion in them. may be u all agree on this. today is saturday, so we'll go to dinner followed by walk in the garden. and we'll talk then.

clasha and kapers do not worry too much please, i know it is very easy to say but........ all the 2nd thoughts u both keep it aside and watch tv, try to keep ur legs up all the time as fee suggested, dont eat fruits like papaya, pineapple, and almond nuts etc(in india we usually do not take these) i think this u already know. thats it little bit of precautions and leave the negative thoughts and try to relax and enjoy, please do not take tensions. u know i feel little bit worry when read ur thoughts, god will always do right with right people. enjoy. xx

Ginnie and fee i would also agree on the donar embryos, but i think embryo donar and taker both must not known each other. and above all whatever one feel for themselves is always good, we are only giving our opinion and we also dont have much info of the same as u have. but we are always here for all the mental support as u all had given me.

ist timer thanks, stay in touch.

Laurs how r u? how is ur baby girl. does she ask some questions?

bye stay connected.

[1st timer]

Hey all,

Thankyou. Yes this is the first time on NHS for me. I finally stopped bleeding after 7 days, i thought it was never going to stop. Now im just waiting for my next period so i can have blood test to check hormone levels. I just want to get started. All this waiting is hard, i know i have a cheek to moan considering the wait you have all had.

Hope you are all well,

xx

[Kapers]

Hi All,

I know I shouldn't complain but I am soooo sick. I'm barely functioning at work, spending a lot of time in the loo. The thought of food makes me vomit. It's my birthday on wednesday, and I can just imagine what delights await me with cake and stuff (YUK!) - believe me this is so not normal for me. I'm phoning the hospital now to book in my scan. Need to know all is well, you know? I'll be in touch x

[swaps]

hi all

well kapers, all u say is a good thing. so try to focus on some other activity lke reading, i dont know i m just telling u coz this news is good no matter u physically feel sick but its a good one. isn't it? so enjoy the days my dear friend. oh one more thing u have to eat bunch of cake pcs from our side also.

right now in college so in there also i thought of u people.

okay we decided to go for next attempt. i dont know what to say at this stage, coz yet i didn't go to doc, i'll go on wednesday. then see what she tells, maybe 1-2 months without medication. i dont know.

rest fine.
bye

[laurs]

Clasha - Get another scan, especially if you're cramps hurt you that much the other night. The clinic can scan you until you have a midwife/with the NHS so phone them and ask. Bleeding is very normal in early pregnancy but not the crapming, I know you said one was coming away from the early scan and this might be the final bit to this but just get it checked please xxx


Kapers - Did you know twin pregnancies are meant to make you very sick! I have a little feeling you are having twins, don't know what it is but when I see your name on the screen I just think "twins!" - especially with all this sickness! Hun I feel exactly the same and at 9 weeks today it ain't getting no better! I'm not actually sick, never was with Alice either but feel sick from morning till night and I did with Alice until I was 17 - 18 weeks pregnant, hope to God it doesn't last this long this time! Cups of tea are out of the question and I have to decide daily what I can and can't eat as I go off certain foods some days, others make me feel sick, horrible horrible! Although I appreciate others may look at our posts and wish to god they were pregnant and don't care what symptoms they get which I can totally relate too, I would rather be feeling like this than to have lost the baby again. It doesn't last forever, first weeks are always the worst, as baby starts to develop so much and when you have your first scan, it makes it ll worth it (and you may get a shock if its twins!) Imagine if one had split and you had triplets!!!! - Sorry, getting carried away over here! xxx

Ginnie - Have you decided what you're going to do or still early days? I have 6 little embryos in the freezer over here. Its early days for us but I have asked hubby what he thinks we should do with them, embryo adoption or let them perish? Pros and cons for either and I'm not sure if i'm strong enough a person to give them to someone else but then I read your story and think what a fantastic Mother you would make and it really sways me towards giving them to another couple. Who knows, I know your pain hun, had exactly the same raw pain last year, we went away for 5 days, this helped a little. Obviously don't know exactly how you're feeling as obviously ICSI 1 worked for us and haven't had all your medical issues so you are one very brave lady! xxx

1st timer - The bleeding is horrible isn't it! Don't feel like you shouldn't be feeling this way, some of us have to wait longer for our babies than others but on this site we have all experienced negatives/miscarriages, I wish it could work for everyone 1st time! Are you able to start again straightaway? xxx

Fee - Good to hear from you. Glad hubby's job is going well! You definitely booked in for August treatment or does it depend on finances? x

Singh - Glad your starting again. I would stay with your doctor this time, listen to the others. They learn how your body functions, what medication to put you on and the dosage etc. from going on last times results so don't move off too quickly, worth giving it another shot x

Well I'm okay, except for what I wrote under Kapers bit about how ill I feel but I know how lucky I am. Haven't heard from a midwife yet and phoned and asked about the delay. Doctors hadn't even sent my midwife form up to them so they had no record of me, wasn't happy! Anyhow, completed the form over the phone with the nice lady so all done and hopefully will hear from them in the next 7 days. No idea when 12 wk scan is but dying to have it, need to make sure everything is ok and I will relax a little when I'm at this point! Should be about 3 and a bit weeks away xxx

[1st timer]

Hey!

Thanks Laurs for that. Am on a real downer these days, not sure if its the effects of coming of the drugs or just everything. Once i get my period in april i get my hormone levels checked and contact the hospital to find out what happens next. I just want to get started again and be successful this time. Was really disappointing last time having to stop treatment when i was all pysched up for egg retreaval and transfer. Anyway hopefully my time will come soon. Thats great that your pregnant, was that your 1st attempt?

Hope everyone else is well,

xx