by jmorroney » Mon Oct 26, 2009 8:11 pm
I am so sorry Tina. I know you have read some of my entries and I have been stating all along that I felt like I did alot of grieving the weekend of the embryo transfer. However, I can tell that I still experienced the stages of grieving (shock and denial, pain and guilt, anger, depression, acceptance and hope). About a week ago, I recognized that I hit every one of these stages. Oh...and when I hit that anger stage, my husband was fully aware!!! Woooeeee....we had a bit of a heated discussion!! I wanted to tell you this in hopes that it will help you with the grieving and knowing/expecting the stages. I have heard that this is very similar to the feelings experiences with a miscarriage. Once I visited the doc for the post-IVF follow-up appointment, I felt the hope coming back. And knowing that it won't be too long until I can try again. Once we start trying again, I think that I will have even more anxiety and fear it won't work. I am deeply sorry to hear your bad news and hope that knowing I am right there with you in this experience helps.
I am waiting for my next period and then will schedule another test transfer. If the uterine polyp has grown back, then back to the OR for removal before starting stimulation drugs. But the first day of my period I will start birth control (to get my ovaries 'quiet'. Now, Tina, I had hope coming from my post-IVF follow-up visit since the doctor thoroughly explained that they learned alot on how my body reacted to the drugs and can now tailor this next treatment from what they learned. Gave me some hope and I hear if the first go around fails, then the docs really can learn alot and make changes to hopefully make the 2nd go around successful.
Linda - I will anxiously be awaiting to hear if you have one or two. I am excited to hear your progress and, again, gives me hope. For what it is worth, I heard swimming it wonderful form of exercise when you are pregnant!
Jeannine